i'll luv u 4eva +wun eva let u go+

2007-01-28T12:04:00.000-08:00

~270107~

a date i'll nv 4get.

we'll b 2gether 4 life.

i'll always luv u.

n i wldnt leave u.

=).. she's finallie accepted me. =) .it may hav been a lng wait. bt it was wrth it. even b4 we

became a couple. we had alreadi been thru alot of ups n dwn. been apart for weeks. yet we went thru it.

showin hw strng out luv was. hw much we luved each other. =). well. i'm 2 overjoyed. bt i've been waitin

a lng tym 4 tis dae 2 come. n it finallie has. =) . i luv u honey. lao po.

o well. sorrie guys. n gals. i knw u all hav been buggging me 2 update 4 a lng tym. =x. sorrie. so sorrie.

hmmz. was away much of e dec period. went 2 europe. been 2 italy, paris, london, rome, venice, switzerland, holand.. wonder if i left out ani? bt it was a fun trip =). definetly luved n enjoyed it .=).

bt i treali missed her. it wld hav been a much beta trip if she was arnd wif me =). haix. aniwae. i wonder wen e 'o' results r cmin out. =( .been meaning 2 get a job. bt i havent gt round 2 it. lazi me.

hahax. aniwae. i reali dun knw wad else 2 blog abt. xcept 4 e fact tt i'm super happie i hav her. theres nth much else 2 sae. =( heex. aniwae u guyz n galz tke cre k. i'll blog another tym. =).

cyz arnd. lao po. wo ai ni.. =)

270107

2006-11-17T22:07:00.000-08:00

i said i luv u.
n i mean it.
i said i wun leave.
n i mean it.
treat u well n u wun leave
tts wad u said.
n i will do it.
i wun let u b hurt.
i'll giv u hapiness.

Fuckin hell. wad gets us by in tis wrld mst of e tym. its lies. hw do u xpect me 2 get wad i 1
den. it sux. cnt u trust me. fuckin hell. i hate u. nw she's confused n upset.
if she leaves me i wun eva 4giv u. i mean it. u all wun knw hw impt she is 2 me.
no1 will knw. i may seem indifferent on e outside. u may find tt i'm nt tis type of person.

bt i m. she's e luv of my life. n i wun leave her. no i wun. so 2 hell wif so many of u.
all i want is her. 4 her 2 b happie. tts all. i cn do away wif everitink else.
fuck it. fuck my life. it sux. i'm sad. i'm cryin. haix. fuckin assholes.

Honey. i wun metion ur name cuz u dun lyk it. bt u knw whu u r. cuz i onlie hav u.
i dun 1 ani1 else. i juz luv u 2 bits. i'll tke cre of u 4 e rest of ur life. i wun eva leave u.
i wun abandon u. i wun put u aside. u're #1 in my heart n tt wll nv change.. no1

will eva b able 2 replace u in my heart. u hold a special place. a special person u r.
u're e onlie 1 whu cn eva cheer me up wen i'm sad. u juz hav tt ability 2.
bcuz u're e angel of my dreams. no1 is beta den u in my eyes. i luv u 4 whu u r.
n i'll treat u well 4eva. i will giv u wadeva u 1. all tt u desire. i mean it. i swear i wun leave.

i knw u dun 1 b hurt by relationships animre. n i wun let u be. i'll b wif u 4eva.. wun eva

leave u. u may ask me y. i dun hav an ans 4 tt ques.. its juz a feelin . e luv tt i hav 4 u. n

i dun doubt it at all. i knw its u i wana b wif 4eva. no1 else.

i'll go against their words. i'll do anitink. i'll giv my everitink. juz 2 treat u well. juz 2 see

u happie. juz 2 let u knw hw much i cre. juz so tt u wun b alne. bcuz i luv u.

yes. mayb i admit. i cnt live w/o u. i've reached a point of no return. whr i juz wan 2 b wif u

4eva. we've gone thru so much. we've been 2gether n shared so much happie tymz.

n i wun eva 4get them. u wun b a memory of my past. u will b a figure in my life.
e reason i'm alive. u're e reason 4 my existence. bcuz i luv u. bcuz i cre.
i dun wana lose u. plz dun go . dun leave. hao ai ni. hao xiang ni.
520 1314 3344

its u i wana b wif.

its u i luv.

no1 else cn eva replace u in y heart.

lyk e sun in e sky.

lyk e moon in e night sky.

i wana brighten up ur life.

2 knw tt i'm alwyas here 4 u.

by urside.

silently protectin u.

givin u a happie life.

a life tt u wana live.

a life tt u will enjoy.

a life filled with luv.

luv frm e bottom of my heart.

an unbroken stream of luv.

bcuz i luv u.

bcuz i cre.

bcuz i cnt live w/o u.

i dun 1 c u sad.

or hurt animre.

u're 2 impt. 2 precious.

183 520 1314 3344.

je t'aime.

I Luv You.

W eneva u feel sad.
E veritink doesnt look rite 2 u.
N ever fear u'll b alne
D un b afraid
Y es' i'm there.

L ook n see. u'll see me.
I 'll b there 4 u.
M y luv 4 u will neva fade.

=I Luv U.

2006-11-09T02:49:00.000-08:00

u're my onlie 1.
i wun eva let u go.
we'll b 2gether 4eva.
i'll wait 4 u.

u're e onlie ger in my heart.

haix. o's r gona b over. bt y m i unhappy. i'm weird? no. i'm nt. haix..
i understand.. i knw u wana wrk. bt yes. i dun deny i'm v sad. i knw u dun lyk it.
i knw hw u will feel. tts y i dun 1 sae anitink. i'll put on a happie front 4 u.
i'll try my best 2 b happie. bt i dun tink i cn. i mean. i was so lookin 4ward 2 being wif u
afta my exams. i was lookin 4ward 2 speandin tis weekend wif u. bt nw. i juz wish
tym wld stp. i juz wish i cld b by urside. bt no. i wun leave u no matter wad.
i wonder hw will i m able 2 get by tis hols. mayb its gud tt u wrk 2.
afta all i wun b arnd for 2 weeks.

i'll b understanding. i'll b there 4 u. i'll make sure i cn mit u weneva u 1 me 2.
its juz e beggining. i dun mind if u dun spend my bdae wif me.
bt i juz hpe i cn keep u company on ur bdae. if u dun wish 2 or m unable 2.
den. haix. i'll juz hav 2 sae nvm again. wad cn i do.
i said i'll do anitink 4 u. i wun eva let u go. i wun eva hurt u.
bt GOD. i hate u. y muz u do tis 2 me. y cnt u let me b wif her.
i desperately wanted 2 make up everitink i had deprived her off durin e past few weeks.
bt u cnt even let me do tt? WTF. i hate u!! y do so many ppl believe in u.

i've made u happie 4 e past few daez. i've kept u happie.n i wan it 2 continue.
i dun wana make u sad animre. bt i'm so afraid i cnt. i dun knw hw.
i'm nt rdy 2 face life w/o u by myside. we've onlie juz begun. i wan it 2 cont. n last 4eva.
i hpe i cn find smetink 2 occupy myself. so tt i wun feel so lonely n miserable.
bt i knw nth will b able 2 take u off my mind. u're always in my mind.. in my heart.
luvin u has been a blessin. i'm so glad i met u. i'll nv 4get e tymz we spent 2gether.
we'll nv part. i swear i mean everi wrd tt i sae 2 u.

sometymz i tink abt me n u.
i wonder hw we manage 2 survive tis far.
seems that love always a reason.

to keep me here believin.
when we feel our love is slipping away.
and it seems that love always a reason.

to make me stay.
and even through the darkest night.
the feeling survives.

and you know when you look at me.
you'll find the reason in my eyes.
tt i luv u n i wun eva leave u.

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je t'aime
sinno me morro.

honey' i swear i wun eva leave u.
i promise 2 b here weneva u nid me.
i'll b e person whu'll guide u thru e darkest tymz.
no matter wad happens.
i wun leave u.
even wen i die. i may leave u physically.
bt spiritually i'll always b wif u.
protectin u frm whreva i m.
luv u 4eva

2006-10-23T11:37:00.000-07:00

a penknife cut.
paper thin.
scarred myself.
sorrie 4 all e hurt.
nv meant it at all.
juz a jerk i m.

smehw. i've hurt u alot 2dae. i nv meant 2 yet i hav. i didnt mean 2 insist.
i juz wanted badly 2. yes. i hurt u. no i didnt mean 2. believe me or not.
tts e truth. i hate myself 4 hurtin u. nt tt it matters.
cuz i knw u hurt 2. some kind of guy i m huh.
promisin nt 2 let u b hurt. yet i'm e 1 whu hurt u.
deep inside i juz care. i'm concerned. though wad i do may hurt u. bt i reali care.

i dun lyk 2 see u hurt. u knw. weneva i see u dwn. hurt. sad. i feel hurt as well.
my heart feels lyk its juz been stab right thru.
make me a bette person. i dun wana lose u. its u i'll b wif 4eva. i wan u.
i wun let u go. dun wana let u b hurt by luv again. neva again.
i swear 2 e gods. if i eva leave u. lightning will strike me n kill me. whereva i m.
i'll always b here 4 u. if nt physically. den metally. spiritually.

its all abt u. nth else matters. i told u i luved u. n i mean it.
we bth share smetink speacial. i cn feel it in u. u're juz unsure.
may i be e 1 whu cn assure u. u wun b hurt by luv animre. i'll be e onlie 1 for u.
i promise.

i knw i've been a jerk.
an idiot.
a stinkin bastard.

juz another guy.
yet i knw i dun wana hurt u.
i dint mean 2.

i'll prove it 2 u.
tym n onlie b my judge wen i sae i wun leave u.
i've made a scar in my heart.

ur name lies in there.
n it will nt b replaced.
nt a visible scar.

bt an emotional 1.
u may nt see it.
bt i hurt alot wen i see u sad n hurt as well.

i'm tryin hard 2 b e guy 4 u.
i wana giv u everitink u 1.
i wana make u happie.

wadeva it takes.
i'll do it.
i'm sorrie i cnt b perfect.

bt i'll try 2 b as gud 2 u as i cn.
i cn assure u tt i wun eva leave u.
i wun eva stp luvin u.

u're e 1 for me.
e 1 i will always luv.
4giv me once again.

hurt u.
hate me.
scarred me.

i reali luv u. i swear. i promise.

2006-10-19T06:33:00.000-07:00

i'ld nv let u go.
i'll giv u happiness.
everitink tt u desire.
it hurts me wen u're sad or hurt.

i knw sme of u r wondering y my blog is always abt luv n sadness.
yeah.. i knw tts true. bt u see. my blog is a place whr i vent my sadness. my anger.
i hope u guys will understand. if u dun its okae. i dun blame u.. u cn choose juz
nt 2 read my blog. haix. sorrie again .

eh. i'm confused right nw. dun knw wad 2 blog. onlie knw i'm v sad n hurt.
well. had o' prat 2dae. shld b quite ok la. onlie my last ans i write wrng. missed out
e 'sulphate' frm my copper sulphate. fuck . bt nvm.. gt 1 mark at least. haix.
kinda tired .. bt wth. i hurt her again.. FUCK.. y.. haix. i wish i had mre tym on my hands.
a part of me saes i shld let her go. cuz i dun wana kip hurtin her. bt another part of me

asks me 2 treasure her. i'm confused. bt hell. i reali luv her. n i mean it.
sme ppl sae if u reali luv a person. let them go. n if they r meant 2 b urs. they will come back.

haix. bt i'm juz afraid of losing u. so afraid.
yet. mayb.. i'm nt e guy u nid or want. i'm tryin hard 2 b 1 though. i may nt b ur dream guy.
bt i hpe 2 giv u e happiness u 1. 2 b here 4 u weneva u nid me.
i'll luv u lyk no other. i reali miss u. haix. plz b happie.

我们最想要的东西只握在喜欢的人手上
给我你的爱让我陪着你去未来
给我你的爱手拉着手不放开

忘了是怎麼開始
也許就是對你有一種感覺
忽然間發現自己
以深深愛上你
真的很簡單

2006-10-10T04:47:00.000-07:00

i'm sorrie if i hurt u.
i dun 1 2 c u lyk tis.
it seems so weird.
4giv me 4 everitink i've done.

bloody fuckin hell. nth seems 2 go right tis daes. giv mi a place 2 go. whr i cn relax 4 a dae.
i feel lyk i'm breakin. i seem so distant frm my family nw. been skippin sch.
o lvls r here. n if tt is nt stress enuf. it seems i hve hurt u.
although i knw i dun mean 2 hurt u. smehw i hav. u dun knw hw much i luv u.
hurtin u wld b smetink i will nv wan 2 do. i'ld rather kill myself den 2 hav 2 hurt u.
sme1 help me.. ani1. save me. cuz i find i'm drowning. dying. bt i still wun giv up on u.
nt till i die. plz tell me wads wrng. wads goin on. i wan u 2 b happie again.

if i die . knw tt i will nv 4get u. i'll look over u in heaven.
i hpe u'll b happie. for urself. hpefully i cn make u see e light byond e darkness.
if i cn survive tis period. i'm nt goin 2 if i keep up my lifestyle i've been leadin 4
4 e past 2 daes. shant sae animre.

i've waited 4 u for 16 yrs.
n i finallie met u.
e ger of my dreams.

my angel frm heaven.
n i'll nv let u go.
i'v came tis far n i wun stp nw.

gona make u believe in luv again.
2 trust relationships.
however u juz hav 2 trust me.

4 i wun let u go once i hav u.
gona treasure u.
hold u tight in my arms.

i'll do wadeva it takes.
anitink at all.
even if i were 2 break down n die.

its all worth it.

for u anitink is worth it.

believe in me.

trust me.

2006-10-06T08:16:00.000-07:00

~frm me 2 u.. a token of my luv 4 u.

i've neva felt tis way b4.
i hve nv luved sme1 so much b4.
i knw u nid tym.
i'm willing 2 giv u all e tym u nid
juz rmb tt i'll b right here waitin 4 u.
luvin u has no boundaries.

hmmz.. boring life. 2dae went back 2 sch again. idiot la. i go bck den all e tchers
nv teach. haix. bloddy fuck. nonsense de. wadeva la. waste my tym.
stay at hme beta sia. hmm.. aniwae sch past pretty fast 2ae ba.
den aftn went 2 watch ' john tucker must die ' .. NICE shw .lolx. =x.
hmmz. mane is goin 2 kill me. he'll sae i go watch shw w/o him again. kekex.
sorrie bro. lolx. i will watch ' stayin alive ' wif u k. hahax. den afta tt went walk
arnd b4 goin 2 plae candle. =x..

Lattern festival u knw. so muz plae. hmmz. bt tis is e firz tym i was so serious.
i dint hav e mood 2 exactly burn candles. rather i had a motive. < nice ma e picture on top.
i put in my meart n soul 2 make de nor. although is nt big. bt diff u knw. so windy. >
bt nvm. i'ld do it 4 her. bt i guess she wasnt touched. haix. so dissapointed.
nvm . i wun giv u up. hmmz. kinda fun nah. plae wif fire sparklers.
haix. bt was so moodless at e end. fuck. nvm. well ... i made it thru another dae. haix.
cya guys arnd. tc.

i've neva been mre sure abt my decissions b4.
i made up my mind 2 luv u. n i will.
i'll be there 4 u weneva u nid me.
tym is smetink i cn giv u.
luv is smetink i'll nv run out of.
u're e gal i wan 2 b wif.
giv me ur luv n let me b by urside.
2 take care of u 4 e rest of my life.

2006-09-29T09:46:00.000-07:00

its been awhile since i fell for u.

wif a blink of an eye i find myself fallin 2 deeply.

in2 a love trap tt will nv release me.

stupid sch. haix. wed go back 2 sch jiu tiok catch 4 hair. bloody rumi .kateh.

come anihw cut my hair. nw so shrt la. idiot idiot.

haix.. hpe my hair grws faster. heard frm my frn tt ifu shampoo ur hair mre it

will grw faster. =x. i shall try. pour e whle bottle. lolx. =x ..kekex..

aniwae. so far my subx. fail humanes. maths. sci i tink aso fail. POA pass liao.

wonder my eng cnget high marks nt. haix. irritating. muz chiong liao. 'o' lvl

cmin liao... =x..

ystd was karen's bdae. n 2dae is wanjing's. lolx. so happie bdae 2 e two of u..

lolx. all e best in ur studies. n best wishes. lolx. wj dun so childish liao wor.

1 yr older le. heex. =x.. hmmz.. okie. i tink i stp here le. nth much tts eventful .

lolx. tc. =) ..

smetymz i wonder 2 myself.

y izt tt i'm so gud 2 u.

i giv in 2 u even wen i'm angrie wif u.

i guess its cuz i luv u 2 much.

dun wana see u hurt.

i aint askin for ur sympathy. i juz wan ur luv.

*do u tink i'm dumb? i guess luv is reali strng.*

i feel happiness i nv felt b4 wen i'm wif u.

e way u smile makes my heart melt.

everi word u sae touches my tender heart.

e look u giv me makes my heart stp.

i feel lyk i'm e luckiest guy weneva i'm wif u.

bt suddenly i rmb.

i aint urz. u aint mine.

bt i sincerely do hpe tt will change.

juz wana b able 2 call u mine.

2 hold u in my arms.

2 b allowed 2 hug u 2 slp at nite.

givin u my tender luv.

je t'aime

hao xiang ni. hao ai ni.

*爱你就是我的责任.能为你吃苦不觉得苦

2006-09-25T08:47:00.000-07:00

i'm sorrie 4 e hurt tt i've caused.

i nv meant 2 hurt u.

do u knw hw much it hurts me 2 see u tis way.

zZz.. bloody hell. tis mrn wake up so earli.. juz 2 go collect contacts wid james.

haix.. tired la. idiot. hmpf. afta tt he come my hse plae ps 2 ...lolx.

idiot. win me again. tyco la he. heex. =x ..hmm. den afta tt go plae arcade.

plae daytona. stupid la. e arcade so empty sia. zZz. haix..

den afta tt go LJS eat lunch .lolx. so funnie. we take our knife n fork go poke e plate.=x.

siao liao nah .heex.. bt den quite fun nor.=x.

hmmz.afta tt go his hse. plae ps2 again. na bei .again he win me. nt fair sia.

dun cre.. nxt tym muz win him liao. lolx. den roy sae 1 help me bet.

bt funnie la. e aunty dun let him .lolx. sadded. nvm.. save me money. hahax..

=p. hmmz. afta tt go EE hse. help her do tinks. actuali is help my parents aso la.

lolx. so ma fan. muz check wad stupid defects. irritating. hmmz. den afta tt go ee hse cook.

lolx. nw i stink. heex. bt nt bad la i muz sae. kinda amire my own skills. lolx. =x..

hmmz. den help yz carry tinks. zZz. nw 12 liao sia. i juz reach hme nt lng.

pro ma.lolx..

was so bz tt i tink i muz hav kinda ignored u. i dun blame u if u're angrie or sad.

bt i hpe u understand. i was tryin 2 pei u n cheer u up. yet i was bz helpin my uncle.

so sorrie. i didnt mean 2 hurt u. i reali didnt. haix... had a misunderstanding.

n it let 2 so many tinks. i wish i dun hav 2 repeat tis nite again. it reali hurts..

it left me feelin so down n alne. i knw i was wrng. i shldnt hav ignored u. bt i had my

difficulties. haix. i dun wana c u sad animre. i wana giv u all tt i cn giv. happiness will b

ur middle name. i promise.

luvin u is my joy.

leavin u will b sadness.

i hav nv regretted luvin u.

n i nv will.

If eva e dae came whr i had 2 leave u.

juz rmb tt i did it wif a broken heart.

leavin u was nv an option n nv will be.

if i die b4 u do.

i'll b in heaven watchin over u.

juz call my name n i'll b there 4 u mentally.

i promise u'll nv b alne in tis world.

i'll b e moon tt lights up ur darkest periods.

i'll b lyk e star tt guides u out.

in my heart u'll nv b 4gotten.

nor will u b replaced.

onlie u will hav e honour of being in my memories.

luvin u.

je t'aime.

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2006-09-16T11:11:00.000-07:00

难道你还没听到

我的心慢慢碎了

long tym nv update. so sorrie. bz sia. tc...

haix. prelims tis week . stupid sia. so stress. haix.. everitink went well.

till e maths paper. so diff la. nt enuf tym sia. fuckin hell. haix. hpe i cn pass. =x
aniwae 2dae went 4 sebest bbq. okae lar. onlie e few of us there knw each other. e rest all his bball frn. hmmz.. bought him a ball. chio sia. lolx. hmmz.. den we wan eat bt shy nia.
so ask sebest take 4 us .lolx. =x .so bad rite. hmmz..
nvm la. he v on de. hahax. den reach hme arnd 11. late nia. tiok nag. bt wth.
hai. dun cre.

hmmz.. do u lyk me or not. it seems so weird. haix. i miss u badly.
i nid u by myside. reduce my stress lvl will u. haix. exams r alreadi bad enuf.
i'm so down now. i juz cnt slp. i hope u're okae. cuz i'm nt. aint ine mood 2 slp.
bt i hav 2 slp. mayb i will drink myself 2 slp. glad i hav a few bottles of alcohol
at hme .haix. i'm sorrie. luvin u.

r we meant 2 b.
do u feel e luv i hav 4 u?
u seem 2 b unsure of ur feelings.
do u nt trust me enuf 2 believe i wun hurt u?

每当我在夜里想起你的时候

不知道你在哪头

心里没有许多许多的哀与愁

不知是否是永远的伤口

我就是卸不下对你的喜欢

原来爱会慢慢增加重量

想关上这城市所有的灯光

黑暗中专心闻你的发香

我找你找了好久

luvin u..
je t'aime

2006-09-09T12:59:00.000-07:00

wen will u accept me.
why cnt u make ur decision.
i'm gettin worried. haix.

dun feel lyk blogging 2dae. juz postin a nice song lyrics.
some of u will knw them. its in chin though. tc.

我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生
成家立业之类的等等
她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢
我爱的人不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸都属于另一个人
她真幸福幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神说明了我不可能
每当听见她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

e way u smile makes my heart melt.
e looks in ur eyes makes me go weak in e knees.
i knw i wana b wif u 4eva.

a feelin tt will nt fade.
luvin u is my life.
leavin u is my death.

i wonder wen we will nxt meet.
leavin mi wondering.
as i yearn 4 u everidae.

je t'aime

2006-09-08T09:00:00.000-07:00

tis r my confessions.
u knw e truth.
e bare facts.
i hav told u everitink.
it all lies in ur hands nw.

hmmz.. went ta watch 'Little Man' wid frnz 2dae .lolx. siao shw. hahax.
e 'baby' so cute larh. lolx. koo koo kah kah. hahax. gud shw. hmmz.
den afta e shw waswondering whr 2 go. den we at j8 basement toke toke liao.
jiu decide 2 go bugis. lolx. wth nah. hahax. den we go bugis walk walk awhile.
den afta tt go eat.. my ex hangout place. lolx.
so long nv go there liao lah.. miss e food there. heex. =x.

hmmz.. den went there tt tym saw our old frnz .lolx. so lng nv see them liao.
den suddenly see them there. lyk reunion sia. hahax. so weird.
hmmz.. den amrul best. order le cnt finish eatin. funnie sia.
hahax. afta tt jiu go hme liao lor. den she alight at bishan wid me.. den actuali
wan send her hme liao. den last min decide go watch another shw.
lolx. cuz nth 2 do ma. so we watch 'The Host' weird shw. bt nt bad la.

hahax. its abt a creature tt came out frm a river in tokyo or japan afta some
idiot scientist dumb chemicals in2 e river. cockster la. bt den gt 1 lil ger in tt shw.
damn brave la. lolx. den a ger father damn cute. hahx. a lil retard de.
bt love e daughter alot. lolx. nt scary nah e shw. lolx. almst fell aslp though.
hmmz.. aniwae. thxs 4 watchin e shw wif me.. had a great tym wif u. =)

luv u loadz. hahax. okie. i blog till here nia.
tc ppl =)

everitym we're 2gether.
feels lyk i'm in heaven.
lyk nth cld eva go wrong.

e way u make me feel.
e way u bring joy in2 my life.
i dun eva wana let u go.

juz wana hold u in my arms.
2 have u by myside 4eva.
2 die knwin tt u r mine.

come over will u.
come over 2 myside.
whr life will b so perfect 4 us.

juz u n me.
in a world of our own.
luvin u.

je t'aime

2006-09-05T06:21:00.000-07:00

wo ye shi ai shang le ni.
wo gai zhe mo zhuo neh.
whu cn tell me wad 2 do??

woke up late 2dae. end up nv go fer claz. lolx. ystd la. 2 den slp. reach hme at 12. hmmz.
darren bdae fun sia. go marina eat steamboat. e prawn there live 1 sia.
wa siao de. cook life prawn sia. zZz. bt its nice nia. e food there is cheap n gud nor.
kekex. went 2 james hse arnd 2 den plae ps2 there. afta tt wenta plae pool.
lolx. fun sia. den we wait 4 sebest at MRT 4 so long lah. wa lao eh. idiot sia. heex.
reach marina jiu 715 liao. by e tym we start eatin alreadi 8 lyk tt nia. hahax.

so we go take food . e meat there damn nice sia. shiok shiok de. hahax.
i eat until so shiok lor. hmmz.. den by e tym we eat finish jiu 10 liao. lolx .damn we dare
darren put ice in his shirt 4 2 mins. cuz his bdae ma. hahax. den afta tt he dance para.
lolx. funnie sia. hahax. bt we had a fun tym overall la. nice dnr. =)) .
hmmz.. we shld hav tis kinda gathering mre often. lolx.

aniwae 2dae woke up late den nv go sch lor. den go mit shameer.kateh n rong siew.
they patch sia. n i dint even knw. lolx. ai seh. hmmz. come my hse n plae lor.
den we go plae arcade. i won daytona. lolx.=p .hmmz.
aftn go study wid amrul.jess n wendy. lolx.. afta tt go j8 walk arnd nor.
nth else liao ba sian. haix.. i miss u.

shld i confess.

i knw i do lyk u.

bt i'm afraid of rejection.

wld we eva b 2gether?

i met u n i knew i wanted u.
bt i nv knew hw much i lyked u till 2dae.
we seem so near yet so far.

cn u accept e fact tt i luv u.
showering u wif my luv 4 as long as u want.
night has fallen n i'm feelin alne again.

want u by myside.
a sudden nid 4 u.
2 hold u tight n neva let go.

2 b able 2 call u mine.
2 luv u e way i want to.
n 4 u 2 knw hw i feel.

je t'aime.

*i knw some of u readin my blog my tink i'm a flirt.
mayb i m. bt i'm confident tt i'm serious abt her.
i'm sorrie if i tarnished e image of guys.
i dun 1 tinks tis way either. plz take care.

2006-09-03T07:40:00.000-07:00

hw lng has it been since i knew u.
keepin a secret in my heart.
i dun knw wether 2 reveal.
i'm afraid i might hurt u.
cuz i knw i do nt wish 2.
u're juz 2 gentle.

hmmz. last nite confrence again. so fun la. lng tym nv confrence le.
hahax. den duunoe why tt dumb darren kip tokin bout gang last nite.
bo liao. smemre sae he dun lyk gang. den dun 1 toke abt it.
den nxt min he start crappin bout gang again. bullshyt fella la he. wan tio whack de.

lolx. den we toke abt 5 hrs lor. till arnd 4 in e mrn.. zZz. den wake up so earli smemre.
haix. nt enuf slp la. irritating. lolx. mumwent U.S liao.zZ. sian.
hol aso start le. den sch reopen imidiately jiu exam. shyt la. tis hol muz study.
fuck sia. haix. .. u promise me 2 teach me chem 1 ah. beta zhun sho mo yuan..
hahax... okie ...blog till here ba.. nth much 2 crap abt.
n o.. wanjing u stupid idiot.
hahax. tc guys. =)..

do u knw tt i reali miss u
i aint kididn. haix.
wad do i hav 2 do..
i dun wana hurt u. i juz cnt bring myself 2 confess..
plz tell me wad 2 do. haix.
i wonder if u'll reciprocate e luv i hav 4 u.
je t'aime

2006-09-01T06:40:00.000-07:00

o' lvls r juz round e corner. haix
hpe i'll do well

agrh. so much bullshyt.. juz 2 organise 1 chalet i'm hvin so much prob
fuck man.. tis dun 1 tt dun 1.. so much bullshyt.
dun 1 organise liao la. irritating. juz cuz u dun lyk sme1 den lyk tt.
fuck. if u cn find mi other ppl 2 go n pay den i dun jio them lar. na bei
stupid sia .. fuckin assholes. haix. shant waste my tym.

aniwae. ystd was tchers dae celeb. funnie sia. we had breakfast in e mrn at sch.
den afta tt gt claz. den at arnd 1 we gt concert. quite nice lar. except e band part n 1 singer grp.
hahax. eddy sing nice sia. lolx. if onlie i cld sing lyk him.
hmmz.. bt den afta celeb gt fight in our canteen. our ex student come back
den tio tai ji wif our students. cock sia. fight fight fight.
till gt police smemre.

haix. dun feel ly blogging liao. another tym den update kzz. sorrie.

tc.

i hope its nt juz a crush.
u're a great gal.
wonder if i cn b wif u.
bt tt may nt happen .

je t'aime

2006-08-13T00:36:00.000-07:00

hmmz.. here r e photos we took nt all .hahax.
nice eh.=p

2006-08-12T19:30:00.000-07:00

i'm back again. sorrie 4 e late updates
lazi u see .hahax.
bt den again.. i did update a few daes ago.

juz tt i cleared it all by accident b4 i had e chance 2 post.

=X.. okie.. so i'm gona do a few daes post hahax.
=).. enjoy.

hmmz. lets see. i'ld hav 2 go back a long way. whr shall i start. okie.
i shall start frm e 4th of tis mth. tt was a fri.
hmmz.. went 2 watch CLICK. funnie movie. yet touchin.
gud shw 2 watch. totaly worth wad i paid 4. hahax. went suntec 2 watch.
den afta tt we go eat n LJS. den went 2 mit up wid yazid. n headed 2 esplanade.

my fav hangout. its been a long tym since i last went there.
brings back tons of memories.. both gud n bad. =X.
okie. so we juz sat there down our usual stuff. talk. listen 2 song. n 'puffed'
hahax.. o well. it was a reali enjoyable dae. n i had so much fun.

=) .. <eddy went in. we nidta help him find kiss goodbye instrumental 4 him.
ani1 gt??plz let me knw. =x.>

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okie. nw 4 e nxt dae. which is 5th. e sat. guess wad is e big even on tt dae?

hahax. it was e firz team of e fireworks festival 2006.
so me,yazid.amrul n yazid frn went 2 watch it. den yazid sae mit at marina.
afta we mit we statrted walkin. afta awhile i asked whr we were walkin 2.
den yazid shocked us all by sayin he didnt knw. WTF ..we walkin arnd aimlessly.
hmmz.. by den we were alreadi at e place whr ppl plae soccer n fly kite there.

i was lyk wth lah. den we decided 2 grab a cab n head 4 esplanade .. n while sitin at
e bus stp.. we met 1 of e 'swans'. apparently they were hvin steamboat
dinner there. bt gen wasnt wif them. hahax. so we went over 2 their table n ka jiao
them. lolx.. den i plaed wif pearly's crab. lolx. nw everitym see her jiu call her crab.
lolx. e fireworks was nice larh. hahax. luved it. so afta tt went 2 sit at e
rocky part. hahax. tt place brings back e memories of fights durin new yr tis yr.
tsk. worst new yr tt i had. =( .. hmmz..okie. i'm done wif sat. lolx..

____________________________________

hmmz.. nw 4 national dae.. lolx. mane jio us go Wild Wild Wet
so we met at 9 in e mrn. den take train there. lolx. we were lyk a bunch of siao ppl.

=x. hmmz. reach pasir ris tt tym we go eat mac. lolx. den i eat half of my meal le
jiu cnt eat liao.=( . dun knw wads wrng wid me. hmmz .den afta tt we walk go WWW.
hahax. siao la we all. walk n sing. hmmz. bullshyt us. lolx. den we go buy e tiks.
afta tt go change n put our tinks in locker. james bag damn dua pai la. nid 1 locker 4
himself. kekex. asshole.. hmmzz.

afta tt we go plae lazi river firz. lolx. lazi river suppose 2 relax bt we all lyk idiots lyk tt.
keep ka jiao each other.. den race 2 b in front. hahax. siao de.
den we stay in lazi river for 2 rounds lyk tt jiu go ULA lA. lolx. damn fun la. we all sit in
e float. den actuali nt scary de. bt den we all go scream. lolx. siao us.
den we sit inside lyk monkey lyk tt la. lolx. keep moving arnd. hahax. den gt 1 part gt take photo de. den we all turn n point middle finger at them .lolx.
shyty us. hahx. we sat tis ride abt 3 tyms la. nth 2 do. den afta tt we go samsung "slide up"
scary sia tt 1. hahax.. den i go wid james. lyk 1 fly off sia. hahax. den i deciding wan 2 shout nt.

bt den see james nv shout den i aso nv shout lor. lolx. they all go sit a few tyms sia.
i sit 1 tym enuf le. lolx. afta tt wenta tsunami pool. lolx. fun la. we sit on e float n relax. den ask james pull us towards e far end cuz all lazi 2 go down .lolx.so we juz sit n relax there.
hahax. afta tt went 2 is ride. 4gt e name le. bt den is u slide down a tunnel de. den inside damn dark la. u cnt see anitink sia. lolx. bt den nt scary de. bt we all still shout.
lolx. roy e best la. shout as if he saw ghost inside lyk tt. den james so sian sian de.
his shout so fake la. hahax. bt den again. we all shout is fake de. hahax. cuz is nt scary
at all la. lolx.

den afta tt we jiu go change n go off le. wenta eat our lunch den go pet safari.
4gt which shoppin cntr le.=x. hmmz.. den afta tt we go marina plae pool n eat dnr.
actuali afta tt wanted 2 go wach fireworks de. bt den all dun 1. so nvm lor.=(
den we go plae lan. agrh.. tt james cn go 2 hell la. no1 ka jiao him sia. hmpf. den i kena scud storm 4 tyms. all jack ass la. come aim me.=(

i aso nv do anitink. idiot sia. fed up. den we plae till arnd 1o jiu zhao liao.hahax.
fun la. had a enjoyable dae. kekex.. luved it man. ahax.

i've confessed my feelings 2 u. cn u accept it?

i'm kinda lost nw. not knowin whr i'm headed.
save me frm e deadness.
luvin u

2006-07-30T05:58:00.000-07:00

hmmz.. long tym nv blog liao. lolx.
untouched blog. turning dusty. juz lyk my life.
my heart. my soul. i dun even knw whu i m nw. worst den dead.
suffocating. suffering. silence. sickness.
dying inside my cold wooden coffin.

lolx. i'm finallie back 2 blog. nth 2 toke abt though.
mayb i will drop another poem. feel lyk writing a sng.
wan learn e guitar. lolx. so many tinks 2 do. yet so lil tym.
boring. i wish life cld juz end. hmmz. i'm crazie?
okie ..shall end my crap here. back 2 blogging.tc ppl. =))

hei ger. i miss u so. cnt believe i'm in luv again
its been onlie a few weeks since i 4gt her.
is my heart playin wif me?
or m i juz playin wif myself. wadeva its is.
i dun wana hurt u. cuz u're gentle. n i cnt bear 2 hurt u.
luvin u.luvin me.

i've seen e affection in u
e radiance tt u emit everitym u smile.
e look in ur eyes.
tt tells me u wana b luved.

though we barely knw each other.
but in my heart i will always haf a place 4 u
in tis world, there's no1 i'ld rather luv.
no other place i'ld rather be, than beside u.

if i were 2 leave tis world.
i'ld leave in peace 4 u'ld alreadi knw e truth
if i were 2 wait 4 u in heaven
wld u knw me wen u see me there.

baby, cn i hold u tight 2nite.
hold u in my arms, close 2 me.
whr i'ld b able 2 protect u, nv let u go.
luvin u wif all my heart, my soul.

r we nv meant b.
i find myself wondering tis lonely nite.
wld u ans tis ques 4 me.
enlighten n release me frm tis cold lonely cell.

je t'aime.
hao xiang ai ni.
wu fa ai ni.

p.s. *ST.

2006-07-22T09:05:00.000-07:00

why muz we be living in a fucked up world.
which i didnt even haf 2 exsist.
u're nt e onlie 1 whu's suffering u knw.
god damnit. fuck u. fuck e world.
some1 plz spare me frm tis agony n kill me.

fuck. waste of my tym. i dun even tinkwe shld watch movies 2gether animre.
u act as if we r all ignoring u. 4 u fuckin info. i dun toke 2 ani1 afta a shw.
so dun anihw go tink. hate it wen u're lyk tt. i'm lyk e guilty 1.
why was i even born in e firz place. hate me so much. kill me.
though u're suffering. so m i. why cnt ani1 understand me. m i meant 2 b alne.
i knw some of u want me 2 share my probs. bt i'm sorrie. there r smetinks i juz cnt sae.

damn tis fucked up world. who can spare me frm all tis shyt.
problems. fights. unhappiness. angrieness. i face them all everidae. cnt there b a dae
of peace?!?! FUCK man. fuck fuck fuck fuck. haix. death is e onlie way out.
i'm tired of all tis.. i'm breakin down. i nv tot i wld b reduced 2 tis. but i reali cnt
take it animore. why muz i b e 1.. will u all b happier w/o me.
haix. mayb i'm beta off dead. agrh.

pirates of e carribean was nice. 3rd part will b out though..
unfortunately u ppl spoiled my mood. i cnt understand it. why e fuckin sad face.
wad did i do. damnit. dun eva jio mi go watch liao. u 3 cn go urselves.
i'll juz stay at hme n rot. fuckin ppl. fuckin world.

come again.till death we part.
life has no meaning.colourless n silent.
wads e point of living.it juz fucks me up.
kill me.spare me e agony.i'm sick.i'm tired.
juz wana leave tis world in search of a beta place called hell.
yes. i'm living in a place worse den hell.

I still nid u
I still care bout u
Though everitink's been said n done

I still feel u
Lyk I'm right bside u
But still no word frm u

Wish I cld find u
Juz lyk u found me
Den I wld nv let u go

Juz lyk old tymz.
Whr we were closer den we knew
Holding u in my arms

dead n tired
livin in a place worse den hell

2006-07-21T06:22:00.000-07:00

u're still e 1 I run 2
The 1 tt I belong 2
u're still the one I want 4 life
u're still the one that I luv
The only one I dream of
u're still the one I kiss gud nite

hmmz.. tis is stupid man. 2dae is e 21st july. suppose 2 b racial harmony date.
but WTH man. gt fight sia. cock rite. Knn larh. somemore is btween all 3 races.
wtf. still call tis racial harmony. hmmz. i shall describe e incident.
bt no offence 2 any of e races alrites. =) hmmz.

it all started because tis grp ot malays threw ice at another grp of chin.
den e chin were lyk damn du lan. anihw throw ice. <bt honestly i dun see wad they dulan
abt they aso thrw ice at ppl de mahx. haha.>okie. aniwae afta tt e chin went 2 find e
malays. den they toke toke.. then afta tt started shoutin. den everi1 started lookin lah.
e nxt tink i knew a fight had started. punches were thrown. wth larh.
it was damn funnie though.. gt 1 part. they were chasin n whackin each other. cuz e malay
whack tis chin. den e chin whack back. hmmz.

aniwae e chase was lyk. e firz guy was a malay running away. den bhind him is e
chin. den bhind e chin is a malay. den bhind e malay gt a indian. den bhind indian
gt another malay. damn lame larh. still gt smemre ppl running bhind larh.
den it was lyk they were running in single file sia. hahx. so basically
it was smetink lyk CHINESE n INDIAN 'v.s' MALAY ...
u call tt racial harmony? hahx. its bullshyt man. hmmz.aniwae enuf of e fight.
on 2 e later part of e dae. hahax.

hmmz. so it is e last period 4 e dae. n we had photo taking frm all e classes. fun larh.
so we went arnd dressin up. <some ah. nt all..hahax.> bt den some of us nth 2 do..
so we go use e indian red colour tingy n apply on ur forehead.
nice sia. i shld've taken e foto 4 u guys 2 see. hahax. damn funnie larh.
den we all walk arnd sch. everi1 staring at us sia. hahax. =X .. aniwae eddy decided
2 take foto wid gopal. n i had 2 use my hp. so.. i did. n guess wad. e foto turned out such
tt i cldnt see ani of gopal's facial features. hahax.

aint tt pathetic. lolx. cnt believe it man. hahax. quite an enjoyable dae overall ba.
hahax. though i'm afraid i'll fail my chem test. hahax. even though i cheated..
=X .kekex. bt great. i pass my maths test. lolx. surprised. hahax.though i tink i cld've
done beta. heex. so sad. hmmz. okie. blog till here 4 2dae bahx.
happie racial harmony guys.rmb 'PEACE no WAR'
hahax. take care ppl.. =))

i'm missin e tyms we spent.
though i've gt those tymz back

i onlie wish i cn haf u back

mistakes i made.
cld i eva hav e chance 2 repent.
i wldnt eva let u go again.

holdin u 4eva.
i didnt see e light in e past.
bt nw i do.

its shinning right down on me.
lighting up my skies.
showing me e truth.

520 1314 3344<381>

je t'aime

2006-07-20T05:46:00.000-07:00

i cn onlie sae i'm sorrie.

it was a careless clearence on my part tt let 2 e goal.
i dun knw hw it happened. it juz did. =(
it has pained me deeply 2 lose tis game bcuz of me.
u all can hate me if u 1. anitink. cuz i knw i cause tis all. haix.. sorrie guys.

we parted 7 mths ago. n 7 mths lata. i dun knw why. bt it seems lyk e feelings r
back again. r u goin 2 accept me? i do nt knw. luv is a confusing tink.
i onlie knw tt i want u back. luv is such a beautiful ting.

2dae had a match against interceptors. hai. we were doin so well.
holding them 2 a bloody draw. until i made my mistake. fuck larh. damn
hw cld i hve made tt careless mistake. it cost e whle team.
agrh!!! i knw sme of u r angrie wid me. n i dun blame u. it was my fault n i
wun deny it. if u dun 1 me in e nxt game so b it. i guess i do nt deserve
2 b in e firz team.. plz 4giv me if possible. haix.

feelin so down nw. i caused e team a whole game.
all cuz of mi carelessness n stupidity..
as if tt wasnt enuf. i was hopin u cld cheer me up.
bt e firz tink u said 2 me made me feel worse.
although u didnt mean it i knw.

save me frm within.
darkness enveloping my life.
e light is slowly disappearing.

i'm lost in tis cold hellish place.
disaapointed with myself.
if onlie i cld turn back tym.

i'ld hold u in my arms n nv let u go.
i wldnt hve made e mistakes i did.
bt i knw tis r all impossible.

onlie wishful tinkin on my part.
i'm luvin u frm within.
hating myself 4 e tinks i hve done.

luvin u.
accept me.

2006-07-19T01:06:00.000-07:00

hai. nw so fuckin sian larh.. in sch hvin some dumb financial literacy
course. damn dumb larh. i wan slp liao. lolx. so since i'm
sop bored. i decided 2 blog. afta all gt some1 keep bugging me update..

hahax.. u knw whu u r ahx. lolx. see.. i blog liao hor. heex.

sian larh. ystd lost again. damnit. so fed up..hai.hw hw..zZz ..
i'm so damn bored.. 2nite dunneo wana go chalet a not sia.. hai.. my claz end so late..
stupid sia. heex. zZz.. mums nt in sin nw.. lolx.. my parents take turn fly sia.
dad fly come back 1 dae den mum fly liao.. hai. sian larhx.

okie. 2nite or sme other tym den blgo again. lolx. tc.. =)

2006-07-12T08:09:00.000-07:00

nth 2 blog abt.. bt i'm here wid a "poem"

tc ppl out there..

i tink i'm juz abt over u.
u brought me laughter yet alng wif it came sadness.
i will nv 4get n u'll alwayz b smewhr in my past.
my future is still unknown.
n alwayz will be.

met u on a cold sat nite
hit it off n soon we were frnz
lil did i knw tt i wld fall 4 u
u brought me happiness

bt e consequences of confessions were sadness
leavin me alne on a cold desert highway
i had no idea whr i was headed
blinded by luv

i was rejected,dejected
my heart was aching bt girl.u did nth abt it.
u cldnt care less
alng came mr cold n i was turning cold 2wards u

u noticed e change
asked me 2 change back cuz u dun lyk it.
i tot. if u dun lyk it n i granted ur wish.
whus gona grant me e wishes tt i want den?

girl,i've learnt 2 4get u
i've seen e light at e end of a long winded tunnel.
see no point in hanging on.
coldness will get me no whr xcept hell.

here's a goodbye kiss 2 u .
happiness was wad u brought.
sadness was wad i gt in e end.
u broke my heart n nv cared 4 it.

everitym i part wif u, sadness fills me up
everitym i bid u goodbye i feel dejected.
everi second away frm u felt lyk eternalty.
i guess tis wld nt matter nw.

e fire is burning down
coldness setting in again
heaven came n left
n hell is here 2 stay again

cold hellish nite

2006-07-11T07:06:00.000-07:00

so lng nv blog liao.. zZz.. no mood sia..hai.
sorrie peeps.. hav been kinda sian lately..
2dae's mane's bdae.. happie bdae bro. =)

hmzz.. gt my k800 on sat.. bt den i use use liao. den on sun nite discover tt e cam
spoil.. fuck ryte.. KNN .. haix. aniwae eddy came over on sun nite..
den we watch world cup final 2gether.. siao match. ITALY power larhx..
hahax.. although i tink france didnt deserve 2 lose. hmmz.. =X .sianz.
tt eddy keep lookin 4 fiona xie pic on my com. kekex.. den we found new places
2 xplore in singapore.. hahx.. fun fun.. aniwae e france match was carzi larhx..
zidane go headbutt ppl. funnie sia. hahax..

aniwae 2dae go change my k800... gt a brand new set. yay!!.. cam workin well.
hpe nth happens sia.. =x.. hmmz.. mane's bdae.. bought 4 him a CD..
Children Of Boredom de.. sianz.. actuali 1 buy stud belt.. bt den roy sae he lyk tt band..
so buy lor.. zZz.. luv my hp.. heex.. yea.. maths tcher change back 2 'john" liao.
tt Chee Bye so stupid larh. no patience de.. although i admit her claz quieter.
tt amrul larh.. everitym giv stupid face 2 ppl. wan study properly he go ka jiao..
sacarstic ppl i dun cre abt ... fuck off.. =X ...

i'm tryin guys. tryin 2 b happie.
my heart is being totured. i feel happie yet sad..
fuckin irritating.. save me..

2006-07-07T06:38:00.000-07:00

nice ma de pic? chio rite.. 2dae take wen we go ocleect pay de..
den afta tt we go walk arnd.. =P

2006-07-06T08:06:00.000-07:00

haf i changed? i'm nt sure.. tts wad u sae..
i dunnoe why.. bt i juz cnt b my oldself again.
i guess subconsiously i can.. bt i chose nt 2. its brought me pain.

tis few daez hve been so boring.. i've done more shoutin den i eva
knew i was capable of.. its pissing me off.. why muz all tis happen?
e cptn is so sacarstic.. tts wad i dun lyk.. bt still.. i will put
all personal feelings aside 4 e sake of e team.. i'm gettin irritated.
sme1 tell me wads life all abt.. why r we living 4.. it seems lyk
a total waste of tym.. fuckin life... formation.. tatics.. players... xtra ppl whu make
so much comments.. i dun wana care animre.. i will juz plae my best..
tts it... fullstop... no mre..

tml goin collect pay.. den afta tt go esplanade..zZz. take photos n
plae arnd again.. crazi ppl on e loose.. haix.. my phy tcher sux.. doesnt he knw tt..
i was lyk sayin he sux durin his lesson.. n he keep smiling.. WTF larh.
siao de.. haix.. sme1 help me..hw m i eva gona pass...fuckin hell.
hmmx.. won viky again.. he's tryin 2 win me.. o well..try harder..mayb 1 dae
i might giv u chance.. if i'm in a fucked up mood.. we shall see.. haix..
boring old life.. giv me a new meaning 2 live... why r tinks lyk tis.. was it meant 2 b..

i knw i've been cold lately.. esp 2 u.. i'm sorrie.. bt i see it as
e onlie way i cn try n stp luvin u.. its wad u wanted.. u didnt wan me 2 wait.
i granted u ur wish. i hope u dun break of our frnship juz cuz of tis.
bt if u do.. i wun sae anitink. juz pray tt u will find ur mr right soon.. missin u.

u're aching
u're breaking
i cn see the pain in ur eyes
sayin i'm changing

try 2 understand tt i'm trying
forcing myself 2 stp luvin u
i try 2 stay n b e same old me
but i'm changing n i dun feel e same

u're gone frm here
soon u'll disappear
fading into e shadows
cuz i'm changing n i dun feel good

hating myself ,
luvin u

je t'aime

2006-07-04T05:45:00.000-07:00

haix...tiring dae.. gona b a short post..
damn tired nw.. fuckin moodless.
dun irritate me..

2dae was our YPL match... fuck sia.. we lost.. wth larhx.. refree aso lyk fuck..
bt true.. our team plae lyk shyt. no communication.. no nth.. wth larhx.. its damn
cock lor.. FUCK.. i knw i aso nv plae well.. so sorrie 2 my team mates..
i will do beta e nxt tym round... i promise.. haix.. damn tired nw..
we shld've done beta.. damn sian nw.. haix..

Fuckin hell.. i dunnoe why i gav u up.. i tot it'ld b beta 4 u.. w/o tinkin 4 myself..
i juz let u go... turned myself cold.. numb.. senseless.. its 2 late fer regrets..
juz wish u cld smehw luv me.. bt i guess its nt possible.. irritating fucked up life..
nth is goin ryte.. my wolrd has been turned upside down.. all i wan
is peace.. my angel.. i do nt cre 4 money or shyt.. hate me or luv me.. its ur choice..

leavin u... hopin tt wld giv u peace.. dun wan 2 see a stress u..
wan 2 see a happie u.. plz dun b sad animre..
hate myself 4 doin all tis.. bt its cuz i luv u..tt is why i m doin all tis..
luvin u.. hatin me..

2 my beloved
i'm sure gonna miss u
i always tink abt u
all e tym u're on my mind

i'm sorrie 4 all e hurt i've caused.
sorrie 4 all e heartaches i've brought.
sorrie 4 all e sadness i brought
sorrie if i had made u confused.

i'm sorrie i cldnt b there 4 u wen u needed sme1.
sorrie i cldnt bring joy 2 ur life.
i'm sorrie i'm nt e guy 4 u.
sorrie i cldnt make u see e light.

i'm sure gonna miss u loadz.
nv tot i wld giv u up.
bt i guess its 4 ur gud.
gonna miss u 4eva..

luvin u still..
je t'aime

2006-07-02T07:54:00.000-07:00

wad a dae it has been..lolx..nt much 2 blog abt though..
kekex..went 4 milk run n see hp..hahax..
sianzie..=(

woke up at 12 lyk tt..den eat lunch/breakfast liao jiu go out..diao... dad goin fer milk run.
den ben sae wan go see.. den go lor.. hahax..fuck sia.. go there so crowded..so fuckin hot.
lucki dad cn go VIP area dere.. den we go there sit n toke.. muz shake hand wif so many ppl..
-_-" ..den afta tt sit down drink n watch soccer.ahax.. shiok.. den afta while i sian liao..
den we go out see e events... quite nice larh.. nt bad.. afta tt... balakrishnan
arrive.. den they plae 1 v nice sng.. fuck sia..damn nice lor.. gt electric violin smemre..
chio larh.. hahax.. den afta they flag off liao we go see e deaf race jiu zhao liao..
ben sae wan go paragon.. zZz.. sianzie..so go lor..hahax...

hmmz.. den we go sony gallery.. i saw e phne i've been waitin fer..
fuckin chio siaz!!! KNN...i wan buy.. $998 leh..ex sia..bt worth it...3.2 mp leh..wah...
bt tink goin buy..dad go sign up 2 n sony member firz..cuz cheaper..
fuck.. waitin fer tt phne... ahax...fuckin chio larh.. hahax... so happie sia.. keep admiring
e phne..lolx.. den afta tt we go see hse.. tt shw me 1 v nice hse.. 2 bad i cnt sae e hse.
cuz dad sae nt alot of ppl knw.. den no bdy cn go in derh.. bt dad tt dae go see..
den we manage 2 go in. cuz e guard recgonize him.hahax.. happie sia..e place fuckin nice.
lolx.. =))) ...if i cn stay there i happie liao sia..hahax.. aniwae afta tt we go hme liao..
fun dae.. exciting.hahax...

somehow my heart has been frozen..bcuz of u.. i feel tt i'm unwanted.
no1 needs me.. why shld i b so frnly..it makes no diff..
i hate tis bt i hve no choice..i dun 1 2 b hurt animre...

i tot i was out of my icy world fer gud.
lil did i knw tt it was nt 2 last.
nv wld i expect 2 find myself locking up my heart again.
it has suffered enuf heartbreaks.

why cldnt u b e 1 2 help it recover.
it yearned so much 4 u.
but u had 2 hurt it.
yet it chose nt 2 hurt u.

everitym u felt sad it hurt terribly.
everitym u were angrie it pained 4 u.
u juz cldnt appreciate e luv it had 4 u.
u chose nt 2 giv it a chance.

it realised it cldnt carry on tis way
chosin 2 lock itself up rather den continue 2 b hurt.
goin back in2 hibernation.
waitin till sme1 cn reali melt it.

i'll nv stp luvin u.
je t'aime

2006-07-01T09:34:00.000-07:00

can anibody save me..help mi out of tis death trap.
spare me of tis misery..luv me or hate me..
dun knw hw i reali feel...fucked up life

hmmz..2dae woke up at 230..hahax..if it wasnt bcuz i had 2 go out i wld've slpt
lata.. kekex.. aniwae we met at 330..saw eddy wid celest..hahax..so long nv
see her liao sia.. bt she nv reali change..hahax..aniwae eddy told us he nt 4lowin us..
i guessed as much lo.. whle dae go out wid celest.hahax.. aniwae.. as usual..kateh was
late..wth man.. den we plae plae whack him.. den he go whack back darren..den kena his
face... fuck sia..den afta tt darren damn du lan larh.. i dun blame him..hahax.. poor guy.
hmmz..so we took bus go queensway.. go collect our jerseys.. so long sia e bus journey..
kekex.. bt den cn relax n tink thru everitink..haix.. miss her so much.. tink we reached
queensway arnd 430 bahx..dunnoe sia.. so lng lor.. fuck sia..

hmmz..aniwae we get 2 e shp tt tym we found out my name kena print wrngly..
wth larh.. anihw print my name.. bloody fuckers.. haix.. nxt i found out tt bloodt amrul
anihw change ppl position..u 1 change nvm larh.. bt at least tell e whle team larh..
bt u didnt even sae a tink..wtf man.. u tink wad.. u lyk jiu change ahx!!! FUCK U sia..
KNNBCCB... okae larh.. nvm...den we go mac sit down.. den we toke toke.. sae formation
everitink.. suddenly toke bout captainship..wtf.. diao..bt den okae larh.. toke jiu toke lor..
haix.. so we were sayin vote 4 a captain.. den we sae sae sae..all askin 4 suggestion..
den we actuali almst decide liao.. den ask zakuan he okae wid e new person tt tym..
he kp... den go buy food firz.. wtf.. den he get back tt tym darren ask him why he dun 1..

den we found out. its cuz he put his name as captain on e sheet of paper liao..
den he sae he finds it an insult.. i was lyk wth larhx.. juz cuz of tt name on e paper.
okae larh.. nvm.. i dun cre.. den we toke till argue sia..den i damn dulan larh..
wth larh.. i juz shouted at all of them in macs..den they keep toke cock..sae we in mac..
so fine larh..i drag them out.. den settle wid everi1.. so finallie settle liaox..so shiok feelin.
den everi1 was happie.. gud gud.. i lyk it tis way.. hahax... den we all go plae arcade.lolx..
plae till we siao siaz.hahax..damn fun larhx.. kekex.. afta tt go grandma hse eat..kekex.

SIANZ...eng lost 2 portugal on penalties.. lame lor.. den rooney kena send off.
lolx... so its potugal whos thru..hahax...nice. keke..

i'm so down nw.. wen will u eva accept me.. haix.. i'm sorrie i haf 2 b lyk tis.
u may nt see it.. bt u mean e world 2 me.. i hope u'll see e truth..
luv me lyk i luv u..missin u..

my life without u wld b empty
the sky wouldn't b blue n sunny
but black n stormy

the grass wldn't b pretty n greeny
but it wld b dark n dead
life wldn't b colorful
but it wld b black and white instd

and living a life without you
is lyk living a meaningless life
which isn't a life at all

n once again i'm here
without u by my side
bt u're still in my heart
i dream n tink abt u all e tym

prayin tt smehow 1 dae
u'll see e luv tt i hve 4 u
n learn 2 luv mi e way i luv u

luvin u
je t'aime

2006-06-30T08:19:00.000-07:00

agrh..wah lao eh..actuali happie dae..nw bcme angrie liao..haix..
wtf larhs..why 2dae such a fucked up dae de...haix..
so tired..yet no mood 2 slp...agrhx... =(

~i wana die..let me go..let me off..

Wad cn i do..i'm so filled wif different type of emmotions rite nw..
tot tis wld b a gud dae..it turned out 2 b so sucky instead..agrhz..haix...
i dun knw WTH i m on tis earth. ='( ..aniwae...haix..whr 2 strt..ah..wtf larh
..dunnoe my eng techer izt gt smetink against me or wad sia. whle dae sae me..
wah lao eh. she see me nt happie izt. KNNBCCB . irritating bitch ..
so sacarstic wan lor she...wa lan eh..take my wallet dun 1 giv me back till i hand
up her hmewrk..den she dun 1 me go her remidial aso no nid so
sacarstic larh. knn..she tink wad..i v happie ahx..no nid go remidial..den lata
i fail eng hw. smemre in claz muz sae until so sacrastic...
"everi1 muz go 4 eng remidial except vincent.. nt bcuz i knw he can pass
..bt bcuz he's a nuisance 2 me...den lata
he find my lesson borring"wtf larh.. ur lesson is indeed boring..n everi1 agrees..

haix..afta sch..me.eddy.kateh.darren go eat at market tt..den we sittin tt tym
eddy go take out his ring..den it drop on e table..bounce bounce den drop in2 chillie.
lolx..so suay larh he.. hahax..sad.. hmmz.. afta tt we go mit viky.n e twinz..
den we go collect pay.. kateh sad sia.. e pay he collect all come 2 me cuz he keep borrow
money frm me sia.lolx..aniwae afta tt we go peninsular..den walkin there tt tym we
keep take foto...ahax..we walk go padang.. den we sit on e bench there lyk some
band takin photo lyk tt..hahax..damn style larhx..nice sia..hahax.. it was so lng
since i went orchard in sch u..so damn fun larh..ahhax.. its damn relaxing lor.kekex..
afta padang we go e old court there take some more fotos..damn funnie... we were lyk
clowns...tourists mre lyk it...lyk firz tym in singapore..hahax...funnie sia..

hahax..so afta we go peninsular den all gotta go hme lerh..haix..here's whr my
dae strts sliding downhill..damn fuck larh...haix..my mum juz gt hme..
den i tell her i tml goin out 2 collect tinks..den she kp liao.
CB larh... tis lyk tis..tt lyk tt...earli mrn aso kena shout...come home aso kena shout.
wah lao eh..i cme hme juz 2 hear ppl shout at me de izt..knn..
lyk tt i might as well dun come home..or beta still..go die..haix...wad a fucked
up life... =(( ..lets hope nxt week weill b a beta week... wad a firz week of sch i've had..

i'm sorrie i cldnt cheer u up wen u were sad.
i'm sorrie i cldnt b there 4 u.. if onlie u knew hw much i wish i cld b by ur side.
2 giv u my shoulder 2 lie on.. 2 share ur sorrows..
i'm glad u're feelin beta nw..so happie 4 u..

wish i cld b there 4 u lyk she is..
she reali is a great frn 2 hve ..i cn tell fr me way u act.

hw wld i b able 2 make u see
feelin so broken up deep inside
juz wana tell u so u'ld knw
tt u're my only one

no1 cn replace u in my heart
wif ur smiles n laughter filling me up
fixing up my broken heart
but u do nt knw

tt u're e onlie 1 whu managed it
u're my only one
e onlie ger i wld spend e rest of my life wif
no matter wad it takes

i've gt a way 2 work tis out
somehow i will make u mine
even if i haf 2 move e oceans n mountains
luvin u deeply

misisn u.
je t'aime

2006-06-29T06:31:00.000-07:00

hmmz..finallie its thurs...1 week goin past liao..bt okie narh..tis week kinda relax..
hahax..so many tinks happen tis week..lolx...esp 2dae....funnie sia.hahax.
okie...shall stp crappin....kekexx..

hmmz..such a funnie n exciting dae sia..it all strted of wif roy..
whu happily brought e bottle of vodka tt me n mane left at his hse..lolx.
earli in e mrn he strted 2 complain 2 me tt it was v heavy..ask me carry smemre..wth man..
siao guy..he bring ask me carry.lolx..aniwae i see him so ke lian..
so i decided 2 help him..being e smart guy i m..i ask him pour in2 my empty
green tea bottle...lolx..den we pour liao..my gud frn juz grap my bottle n

strted drinkin it as if it was plain water.lolx..bt he still looked okae..
so i tot...wth manz..power fella..hahax..den slowly everi1 b'came attracted 2 it.
n they strted drinkin..lolx..all so funnie sia..hahax..aniwae it was geog lesson...
so lucki...cuz e tinks 2 happen nxt were so funnie..lolx..

aniwae..gt 1 guy strted goin drunk firz..
dunnoe hw much he drink larh...bt wth manx..it was lyk onli 8 in e mrn n
there he is...lyk 1 bloody drunkard.hahax....his face was so damn bloody red larh..
n he was lyk 1 cockster..we tell him he drunk..den he ans.."fuck u larh..
u tink i drunk rite..i actuali nt drunk de okae!"hahax..n he strted walkin arnd
lyk he wanted 2 fall liao.lolx..still call tt nt drunk?hahax...siao..lolx..aniwae i jio him cme
2 e back of e claz..offered him a chair..den i pull e chair away..juz 2 see he acting a nt..
lolx..he almst fell sia..lolx..funnie..hahax..okie...so tts enuf of tt guy 4 nw..lolx...nw..another drunk guy..
hmmz..so tis guy at firz okie de..
it was onli durin recess whn i saw e after effects..hahax..aniwae recess was at 940..so yeah..hahax..he was lyk damn blur larhx..

we go buy food..den he bought porridge larh..so we all went ta sit 2gether.
tis is wen e craziness reali began...hahax...aniwae..he was lyk..he took sme porridge..
den he spill some on his pants..dotx..so he strted scolding..took another scoop..
spill again..lolx..until he du lan liao...den he sae he wan go buy other food..den we were
lyk...dun siao larh..waste money.hahax..den he sae.."no larh..jkjk onlie..i goin buy drink larh
..hahax..den afta tt...he reach in his pocket..den he sae..fuck e stall aunty larh..nv giv
mee back my change..fuck sia.."den we scold him..dun siao larh..aniwh sia u..hahax...n again
he said he was juz kiddin..wth...so okae larh..in e end he nv buy drink..he sat down again..
bt den he nv eat liao....push e porridge bowl away..took out his hp n called his gf..
dunnoe wad cock larh..den they lyk gt argument..den dunnoe wad my frnz do..hmmz..
aniwae...e fella whu drunk firz was eatin n my other frn whu was aso drunk was sittin bside
him..he juz grab my suddenly n knock his head..siao de larhx..wth man..

okae..den my frn was lyk.."dun whack larh..fuck u sia"..hahax.. if tis part isnt crazi enuf..
the tinks tt followed will b even crazier.hahax..okae..we were eatin properly wen
suddenly e person whu kena whack on head strted sayin out of e blue.."wah lao eh...
tt guy anihw whack my head..will bcme stupid 1 sia..den lata go ITE ahx"..den e other drunkard luff till he fall on2 e floor sia..so we pull him up n help hit sit down..afta awhile..peace..den..tt guy
whu kena whack on e head strted tokin again..tis tym he sae.."fuck sia..lata i stupid den i
go ITE my mum sure kill me de!!""hahax..damn funnie larh...we all luff till wan die le sia.ahax..
aniwae e other drunkard..tis tym..he luff till he spill e porridge n fell on 2 e floor.hahax.
funnie sia..den gt alot of tinks happen larh...gt fight almst strted cuz 1 guy was drunk..
den we attract 2 much attn liao..so everi1 juz split n zao..hahax.. den i tot okie larh..
afta while they will okie de..

bt den..smehw my descipline master found out...dunnoe which bloody bastard pao..
den he call sme of us out..smell everi1..wtf sia..lucki my frnz all okie liao lah..bt den
still gt liquor smell mahx..bt damn heng..lucki he giv chance sia..hmmz...aniwae..
tts abt it ba...gt alot of tinks happen 2dae larh..bt 2 much 2 blog.lolx..
afta sch wen ta train..den watch match..hmmz...our match nxt tues at 5..muz win sia..
zZz..all e best 2 myself.lolx...siao liao..okie..tts all fer nw ba..ciaoz..
<nxt tym cnt bring alcohol 2 sch liao..hahax>

glad 2 see tt u're happie..its gud 2 see u so cheerfull..

last tym everitym sad de.nw so happie..if u cn keep tis up i'll hve less worries.
luvin u alwayz..muacks...

locked up in a room left 2 cry
if u leave me
i might die
i luv u mre than words cn describe

my feelings nv fading
being wif u brings pure joy
u're everitink 2 me
u're nt a toy

heartbreak runs through e lives of many
but me? there isn't any
no heartbreak here
onli e luv tt u cn see n hear

i luv u baby,
can't u see
i cn onli wonder
do u luv me

missing u..
je t'aime

2006-06-28T09:12:00.000-07:00

doin tis post cuz i'm sad...depressed..moodless...

loneliness knws me by name..
sittin alone in my rm tis dark lonely nite
watchin e rain fall silently outside my window
gazing at e dark sky i tot i saw ur face amng e many stars

lil did i knw tt it was juz an illusion
an illusion tt has blinded me since e dae i met u
tis feelin is lyk no other n i 1 u to knw tt i've nv luved ani1 mre den i luv u
u've brought me happiness yet caused me sorrow.

bt thru it all
u hve 2 knw tt i still luv u
wld u eva shine down on me lyk e moon shines on me
e moon which brings me light wen it gets 2 dark 2 see e truth

luvin u n missin u is part of my life
hurt n grieves r part of a complicated ting called luv
je t'aime

2006-06-28T06:25:00.000-07:00

i'm broke..wth manz.....i wan my pay asap...n thse whu owe me hurrie up pay leh..
wo bo liu liao nehx....poor me..kekex...such a boring dae in sch..lolx...it pass so fast sia.
hahax...so many tinks happened 2dae...kekex..

yea...i won money again...bt wth...in e end still lose...muz recover back my money ahx
hai..poor me..kekex...2dae kinda sian sia..lolx..lyk nth 2 blog..
hmmz...so tis might b a short post ba..so sorrie..lolx...boring nehx..
aniwae...riswan n ish nw fighting..actuali is ish angrie wid riswan...wth man..
i actuali du lan wif ish de..cuz he whack riswan till so jia lat..bt den i found out why liao..
den yuan lai is riswan in e wrng..haix.

nvmz lahx..they goin 2 table toke wid rumi..so shld b okie larh..e 2 of them
my frnz..so dun 1 see ani of them get hurt.kekex...
aye..sianz...tml gt trainning.hahax..muz train properly.lolx...ah shyt..bad news le.
juz heard tt ivan playin again..wtf larhs..hw 2 kip tt guy quiet sia..yogaraj die sia..
hmmz...nvm..shall tink of a way..lolx..sme hw or other..kekex..
tml lesson aso sian sian de sia...everidae strt wid humanes...
den gt eng smemre..wah sian ahx..hahax...

missin u more n more wif each passing dae

tinkin of u all e tym..unable 2 4get ur laughter.ur voice..

ur gentleness.an angel u r 2 me..wen will u b able 2 see e luv i've 4 u.
all i wan is 2 b wif u..2 kip u happie..

i miss u more n more
wif every passing day
u never leave my thoughts
wishing u were mine

wish u never hav to leave me
no matter wat u will always b in my heart
through good times and bad
through rain n shine

juz rmb u’re important 2 me
no matter wat ppl tink or say
i will always luv u 4 e person u are
kip ur head up 4 me

we'll be 2gether soon
u'll see tt our luv is true
and knw tat i miss u
luvin u deeply

missin u..
je t'aime

2006-06-27T06:02:00.000-07:00

kinda fun dae in sch....some stupid new sch rules sia..wth manz.my sch sux larhx...
aniwae nw everi week we gona get haircheck..den gt barber in sch smemre...dotx sia..
i tink my principal 2 much money..wth larh...dun cre..hahax.....

yeahx!!!i won money..lolx..so happie sia..last few daez keep losing money..
den finallie i win back liao.lolx...bt have n recover my lost..
luckily italy last min gt penalty sia..hahax..if nt die liao..yu lose money.hahax..
lolx...juz found out shaknas goin leave our sch liao..hai...sadded..i dun mind she our civics tcher lor..
so gud sia she..hahax...den had remidial 2dae smemre...wah..so tired..
afta sch go plae soccer..lame sia we all..lolx...lyk crazi ppl.hahax...den so tired.lolx..

fuck sia..afta maths i go watch YPL..firz match 2dae.lolx..onlie i no nid go eng remidial sia.
my teacher see me aso du lan de..i tink..lolx...aniwae i aso dun 1 see her..hahax..
judging by e teams playin in ypl..i tink some gt no chance bahx..hmmzz.
bt we aso muz work v hard.lolx..so i gt hme arnd 530..lolx..was so tired...
hahax...bt cldnt slp..cuz gt tui...den juz finish.lolx..wan slp liao sia..so slpy..bt wan watch match lata..
i gt bet sia..hope dun lose..hmmz..tml tymtable best larhs..so slack derhx..
hahax...i tink whle dae i onli gt 2 lessons tt i nid 2 study.lolx..fun sia..shiok..kekex..
hope i hve a gud dae in sch tml.heeex...

juz settled sme soccer stuff..wth manz...so fed up...i'm mre lyk e bloody manager.
no nood siaz..haix.....watch shw..lolx.
tc guys...=)

wo zhen de hen ai ni..qing ni ge wo yi ke zi hui
u r e person i want in my life...luvin u has been e greatest feelin i've eva had.

reali luv u loadz..

if only you knew how much I luv u
everidae i wish tt
when the sun was rising that it rose with you too
how when it smiled down upon me
tt I wished it had been your smile instead

as e birds were singing in the trees,
hw I wished it were you singing
filling e air with your wonderful voice
serenading me wif ur lovely voice

if only wishes were horses
i would ride to the most isolated areas

juz 2 spend e rest of my life with u

i miss u deeply.

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luvin u.

je t'aime

2006-06-26T05:07:00.000-07:00

my new blog..took so long 2 get tis blog up..haix..
so irritating sia..
aniwae nw its done n i cn look 4ward 2 mre happie blogging.

firz dae of sch?boring siaz...change maths teacher..hmmx..nw my maths claz smaller.
bt okie larh..nt bad narhx..cn understand her teaching..hmmz..

tis term onwards muz wrk hard liao neh..muz chiong all de way siaz..
hmmz..muz score n do well 4 o's sia..
YPl strtin liao..wth...dunnoe my team cn marh.haix..
aniwae...e hols past so fast man..lyk a blur..
it juz came n went.hahax..lost 70 bucks liao...all on soccer betting..wth...cn die sia..
muz cutdown..hahax..

hope everi1 is motivated 2 study liao...lookin at our mid yr results..
they r so scary manz..hmmz...aniwae 2dae go sch drink..siao liao..

we afta sch drink e E-thirty three...den go bhind eat..den drink vodka..lolx..

firz dae of sch we go crazi..hahax...heng 2dae hair check i nv kena caught..kekex..

so boring siaz...haix...

i'm hurting inside seeing u sad..i juz wan u 2 b happie..2 giv u all e happiness u wish 4..

i wan u 2 4get ut drak past n move on...2 a bright future..cn u giv me e chance 2??

luvin u eternally..

my love fer u:

the luv tt i hve for u
is never ending
flowing lyk a waterfall.
so pure n crystal clear.

transparent without any illusions
lies r unheard of..
truth prevailing in it.
luv filling it with emotions

hurt n regrets being a tink of e past
luv n heartaches r common
lookin at u in eye
reminding me of a beautiful angel

with my eyes stuck on u
unable 2 4get a beautiful angel
wantin 2 care 4 it
2 luv it wif all my heart.

4 tis angel i knw is broken in e heart
wif bad memoirs frm e past.
unable 2 move on without her wings
i aim 2 heal her wings n touch her heart

luvin u is my life.
caring 4 u is my passion.
dying 4 u wld b my pleasure
wanting u by myside is my aim

Je t'aime

2006-06-25T03:51:00.000-07:00

testing...my firz blog....wth...so confusing